Who I am

Posted by sourpatchbaby | 5/26/2006 | 1 comments »

over the next few posts I'm going to explain who I am, and what the heck I'm about. this is expecially so that when I say "been there, done that" you will know that I really have been there and done that. although I am only 23, I have been through more than a lot of people. I have three younger brothers, one older sister, one older half-sister, three dead older half brothers, one (same age) half brother, and (possibly, not confirmed) one younger half brother. that's all the siblings I know of. my father (parental figure, from now on) was quite the playboy. I had a very violent upbringing. first off, let it be known that I was molested by an aunt as a little girl. not just me, my sister and cousin also were. no one talks about it, is as if it never happened. although I've never tried to talk to my sister about it, I know that she would deny it. my family is like that. I don't think I have to go into more details than that though. second, the parental figure used to beat the crap out of us. I remember seeing him kick my mother's head into a wall when I was no more than three. he would also drink all the money we had and beat my sister and me up when my mother didn't send him her whole check. he would also threaten my mother (she was in the US and we were with him in the island) that she would never see us again.

now a little background, my mother had my sister and me out of wedlock which made us bastards and some of her family members treated us as such (only a few aunts and uncles). when my sister was a baby, the parental figure kidnapped her (hid her from my mother for about 1 month). I still don't know why my mother went on to have 4 more kids with a kidnapping wife beater. he would listen in the other line when we would speak with my mom on the phone to see if she was telling us to go somewhere and meet her family. he hated that I always told my mom that he was in the other line. oh yeah, I forgot to say that the parental figure was also a "pastor" (only when it was convenient to him). yup, the parental figure a pastor. a bible under the arm and a bottle of cerveza on his hand. he also would cheat on my mom every chance he got. one time my sister actually had to wait outside the house for him to finish his cheatin' (we lived in a one room dingy....that's a whole other post)

I'm not sad as I write this because I have come to accept my childhood as what it was. however nasty it was on the parental figure's side, my mamma (grandma on mom's side) made it good. she was the best grandma in the world (she died a couple of years back). This is it for now, I will post later. remind me to tell you about my unusal collection of pets and how they all (with the exception of like 3, that we had to give away) met unsavory ends.

Just a quickie

Posted by sourpatchbaby | 5/24/2006 | 0 comments »

Nothing much going on round this part of town, just the usual. things have been hectic at work since our whole department was moving one floor down in our building but we're almost back to normal.
the woobie officially has four teeth. NOT looking forward to him biting me in the middle of the night.

what i've been up to this week.

Posted by sourpatchbaby | 5/22/2006 | 1 comments »

just for your enjoyment, and because im such a masochist; i'm going to post exactly everything i've done this week. we sold the house on monday and had to move the weekend prior. it is NOT nice to spend your first mother's day moving boxes, NOT nice at all. we have to stay at my mil's one bedroom apartment until the other people's lease ends so we can move into our house. arggg. it sucks big time. tuesday i had to go over to the DMV office to get my ticket taken care of. wedn went to skool-sucky. thursday had to go to a funeral, oh yeah, thurs morning my mil's car (which i had to drive bc mine had gone kaput the week before) completely died in the MIDDLE of the intersection in FRONT of my job, i was so embarassed i didn't want anyone to see me there. it sucked big time, fortunately, my awsome awsome hubbie had been looking at cars for me and was able to get me an awsome car. LOVE IT!. friday i went to this revival service really far away and got lost on the way there (for once, this wasnt my fault, i was given faulty direccions). saturday i had to go to the library to do my skool work (im taking online classes this summer and will be internetless until we move to our house, not a good combination) then grocery shopping, cooking, and then got together with our group until about 1am. sunday i was able to sleep in until about 730am (whoo-hoo) then we had to get ready for church and then out to eat afterwards. when we got home around 10pm i was pooped but had to get things ready for the week. oh yeah, forgot to mention, i work full time, breastfeed (pump 4 times a day at work), go to skool, and go to church 3x a week and have to drop off and pick up the woobie at the sitter's every day, i have almost no time for myself and the woobie still wakes up several times to eat at 7 months old. well, gotta go back to work.... man, im exhausted just remembering all i had to do last week, hope this week is less stressful.

Are you there God?... Mom?.....Anyone???

Posted by sourpatchbaby | 5/19/2006 | 1 comments »

This is it..... I have finally taken the step and started my own. not a lurker anymore but a girl, a girl with a husband, son, and everything else that makes life fun....maybe. umnnnn, ahhhh, don't make me get a sick kid to cough on you boy, I'll do it.